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2008-12-06T02:31:00.000-08:00

This is my first post. Ako lang nakakaalam nito.. This is my real online journal..

I'm so sad today because I and my bheb are always fighting these past few days. I know I'm the cause of this misunderstanding but hey, I didn't intentionally do that. Of course, I love him and I will not do things to make him sad. But viewing other's profile in friendster doesn't mean that I don't love him anymore. Well, I guess, it's really my fault. I know it's my fault. I'm really really sorry.. I AM BHEB. I AM!! I'm sorry for what I did. :( I want to let this relatuonship go but..
I don't know how to let go of 3 years. I don't know how to leave you when I know I need you and you need me. I don't know how to have you forever when I always unintentionally hurt you. I don't know how could you be so happy with me when I'm always unknowingly doing ways to make you sad. It's really hard for me to let go of this relationship when I know I'm still inlove with you. Yes, I'm still deeply inlove with you. Nothing's changed. But I know that if I let you go, you will still be sad. Because you need me. You always need me..
If I let you go, what will be the benefits of it to each other? Hmm.. There will be no more misunderstandings.. You will be no longer angry to me.. Just like when were just best of friends. I don't know how to get things back just like the way they were before. I know I still love you but I'm also thinking if we will be always like this forever. But bheb, I know we can make this.. I know we can! We always can, right? I'm happy you're not changing! I'm happy!!! You're not like the other guyss.. You're always making me happy and doing all the things you can just to give all the things I want.. I LOVE YOU BHEB. I know I want to let this go but I'm much eager to continue fighting for you.. I LOVE YOU!! AND I ALWAYS WILL.. <3

Grace Unleashed

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